... but it's not all doom and gloom.

 This cancer journey has been a strange one, and very long. I've often felt like a colt - lunging and fighting at the harness slipped onto me, the harness of all the daily chores and duties I have to take control of, but I've finally been gentled into it. I realised that, as I was taking leaves out of the pool this morning. I manage the pool adequately (it always used to be Geoff's job), I do a lot of the driving and all the taking care of the car - licences, petrol, air in the tyres and so forth, and of course as usual all the cooking, mending, cleaning, buying groceries and washing I've always done. (Thank goodness for my Malawian helper Chadson: he gardens a bit and cleans the house a lot every Friday) I've been thinking how lovely our quiet days are, on the whole. Geoff and I are getting old together very comfortably indeed. We cheer each other with silly jokes. I feel warmly towards him. He can do quite a few things now: he can make a fire, he can make coffee. What he can't do is look up too much or get up off the floor, so he can't stoop down too low. He must never overbalance.  This is how he bashed his eye while falling on Tuesday. He was concussed for a while.

Bugger

 So damn and bugger, Geoff fell again this morning. We are both trying to work out why. He's been so well this past month. He woke up, came to through to my room to talk to me, and fell at the threshold. Luckily he was wearing a thick knitted beanie and his head hit the rug not the floor, but still, he has a huge bump above his eye and I think it's going to get more colourful as the day goes on. He can't remember falling, or that I got him up onto his feet and then he collapsed again and I couldn't hold him up so down onto the floor he went again. I phoned my friend and tenant, Charles (this was at quarter to seven in the morning) and he came through and managed to lift him and we manoevred him onto the bed. After resting for about an hour and after I'd made him coffee and breakfast, he got up, had a wee by himself, and then got dressed as normal. So there we go. Haven't done anything about it as he seems fine now.